i had major back surgery this year, only a few months after having another adhesion surgery.
this was my biggest challenge 2009. to live with my pirate scars and what they stand for, to learn everything new, to be incredibly patient whilst wanting to sing the lemonheads line " patience is like bread i say/ i ran out of that yesterday" over and over again. learning to accept help from unexpected people and places. learning to live with the disappointment of losing so-called friends over being sick for so long and then still being able to trust new people,make new friends.learning how to walk, to sleep on my wounded back, to get dressed, to drive a car again, to pick up things with my fancy new gadget. learning how to feel whole again in spite of the feeling of being ripped apart in every sense of the word.