i am forty now.
i do not feel different.
i feel hopeful and tired and okay, but exhausted.
almost like every day.
who do i have to be?
who do i need to be?
who do i want to be?
anja. brave. happy. sad. melancholic, not depressed.
a poet, a baker, no candlestickmaker.
a good mum ( i hope ) a good friend, a good partner.
a puppy/ piglethugger, a west wing fan.
healthy and a little wise, calm and collected
disorganized and chaotic.
a reader and writer.