Dec 21, 2010
Dec 15, 2010
Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how dit it play out?
This one, thankfully, is easy. The wisest decision i made this year was not to give up on myself and my future and to go back to university. This decision took a lot of fighting ( mainly for money) and a lot stamina and i`m just really glad i made it. How did it play out? I don`t really know that yet, but so far the output is great: i have met lovely, new people, I get out and think other thoughts, i activate my brain instead of drowning it in crap ( tv mainly) and i`m altogether more hopeful. and my son is proud of me which makes me proud of myself. that in itself is already worth it.
Body Integration & Party
These two i simply cannot answer. As awful as this may sound to you: no party for me in 2010 ( would already be thankful for a night out which doesn`t involve a parents`meeting:) ), because most of the time i just wasn`t physically up for it. And no body integration for me, as achieveable as that may be. These last few years I have often felt that my body has turned against me. It is not my temple, it is a war zone and the war is one i didn`t ask to join. I very rarely feel comfortable, I cannot remember what it is like to live without pain. I would very much like to learn how to handle this and am open to any suggestion- who knows what will happen...
Dec 14, 2010
prompt: what are 11 things your life doesn`t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life?
1) sickness ( do as much as i possibly can to sustain my body)
2) stress (do as much as i possibly can to sustain my mind)
3) fear ( do as much as i possibly can to fight it)
4) claustrophobia ( see above)
5) self- loathing (get up every morning and say to my face in the mirror: you are indeed a goddess, the most witty and beautiful in the whole world. this should make me laugh, so it`ll work)
6) cold feet ( wear warm socks& shoes)
7) fat ( eat less and more slowly)
8) stupidity ( read more, don`t watch so much tv)
9) hatred (hate less, love more)
10)artichokes (:-) )
11)clutter ( organize myself)
my life shall improve dramatically if i get rid of all these things- especially the cold feet and the artichokes. looking forward to it...
Dec 12, 2010
Prompt: Beautifully different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different - you'll find they're what make you beautiful.
I´m 40 years old.
I have a grim sense of humour, which i have needed during the last years.
I have lots of scars inside and out.
I am chronically ill, but i refuse to give up on myself, or the world- or, as a matter of fact- fun.
I can handle pain quite well.
I´m a good friend, i´m loyal.
I´m a good mum (most of the time)
I take care of my friends, I make them laugh.
I write poetry that makes people cry.
One of my best friends calls me McWeepy, because i cry so easily:)
I love to cry over books and movies
I am sure that i`m secretely a mermaid ( or a kungfu-babe )
I never give up- something inside me always tells me to get up and fight.
I love to start conversations with total strangers.
I`m a good baker.
all this and more probably doesn`t make me different, but maybe, just maybe it makes me beautiful.
Dec 8, 2010
Prompt: Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it? ( Gretchen Rubin )
I made these. My partner gave me a voucher for a patisserie course and I made these.
One should know that I am not a very crafty person. I envy everyone who can draw, doodle or make other things, because i`m simply not very good at it, although i do love the idea.
But baking? Trying out new things, new methods? for these I/ we ( the course) used lots and lots of butter, pears, passion fruits, limes and lemons, flour, almond, eggs, food colouring, chocolate, gelatine, cream and quark and all sorts of lovely things. I want to make more things like these, to practice more.
Dec 7, 2010
1) why on earth did i want to go back to university again? somehow i cannot seem to remember:)
2) i thought i`d never have to write a test again
3) i feel kinda sick
4) i can think of a million things to do instead of preparing for this test, i.e. write lists...
5) it would be great to be rich and to do all this as charity work
6) i feel stupid
7) my kid seems to be smarter than me ( but then they always are, right:) ? )
8) this would be a good time to get drunk, but then i don`t drink, so that`s that over and done with...
9)to watch " the closer " will probably not help me understand german grammar. or will it?
10) there are so many excuses, but something in me wants to pass this test, no matter how
11)will i ever be a good teacher?
Dec 6, 2010
December 4 – Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year? (Author: Jeffrey Davis)
I looked up and watched the sky, took photos of it, its changing colours.
Watched my son sleep, watched my son read.
Remembered last year and was thankful not to be in that place anymore, thankful for my legs moving.
Thought of Aimee Mann: " and you loved the world you lived in/ and it loved you back"
Dec 4, 2010
December 2 – Writing. What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it? (Author: Leo Babauta)
I live, it`s as simple and as scary as that. I live and I take care of all the other things that have to be done: the reading for university, the shopping lists, the homework with my son, the thank-you-notes and the condolence letters are almost the only things i write these days. But I want this to change, I´m trying to come up with one smashing plan.....
Dec 3, 2010
December 1 – One Word. Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
HOPEFUL. 2010 was and still is hopeful for me. In spite of everything that happend last year, in spite of all the obstacles this year, i went back to university to study again after 10 long years. It`s stressful and tiring, but I´m hopeful.
I would like my word for 2011 to be RELIEVED.